girls, i need to rant and see if i could get any advice out of this. as for the guys, if you don't feel comfortable don't read ya, but it'll be benefitial for you too if you ever wanna get married and have a wife in the future. hahaha!!
nola, nothing too detailed. but, seriously man, 19 years of my life (ok, i didn't get my period the moment i was born), this is the worst first day of the month for me!!!
i don't get it, my period pain always intensifies from about 12pm to 5pm. after that, it'll slowly subside. why ar? is it like that for you too? has the sun anything to do with the cramp?
and this time, it was really massive pain. to the degree that i had a strong urge to reach my hand into my body and pluck out my ovaries. it was that painful. but at the thought that i wouldn't get to have kids without my ovaries, i decided to keep my ovaries. but then, it was always a struggle. at times i would rather give up having my own kids at the expense of the pain.
don't get me wrong, i dream to become a mother one day, but it is really that painful okay! super painful! you guys will never ever understand so don't say it's not that painful and that it's a small thing else you get blacklisted by all the female species there is! :(
my mummy tells me that after she started having kids, her period pain gradually subsided till no pain at all. suddenly i felt like giving up stpm and start having kids there and then. but nola of course i didn't do that! hahah!
to add to my suffering, my neighbourhood electricity was cut for some repair work, which means i couldn't nap. when i stand up and walk around, i felt like my knees would give in and that i could just stumble anytime. when i lie down on my bed, it cramped even harder and i've no idea why. i resorted to playing games on my phone and reading mags, but i couldn't concentrate and felt my eyesight blurring. my hands were sort of shivering too. it was so scary okay..it's that painful.
and when the electricity finally came back, i thought i could catch a nap at last. but to no avail, i spent an hour on bed trying to nap. the pain just wouldnt subside at all. i felt really really helpless.
was too sleepy and tired as a result of all that pain, i forced myself to catch some sleep. but the moment i lie on the bed, the cramp became worse, and in the end, i napped seated on the side of my mummy's bed while hugging my pillow to my stomach. it sure looked retarded. hahah!
and the moment i realised i actually fell asleep, i couldnt move my body cos it was all stiffened. omg what a day. girls, what do you do to cure cramps ya? i know how to prevent la, which is to have some of those pills, and avoid drinking cold drinks, etc.
but how bout while you're having it? what do u usually do?
and guys too if you do know what to do. heheh would appreciate it lots! :)
i'm back! :)
first and foremost, yours truly is very happy and relieved that Dance, My Love was a success. we managed to deliver our best to the crowd, and we got better and better each service. Praise the Lord for providing us the energy and stamina to perform so many times! :)
i wanna express my thanks and gratitude to many ppl.
firstly, to God for making this possible for me. for giving me favor and opportunity to be able to serve Him with my talents. God, thank you for being with me throughout this journey. words cannot express..
secondly, to pastor and esther for giving me this opportunity to serve, as well as believing and having faith in me that i can bring out my best in that character. thanks also for working so hard together with us to make this dance production a success. all the planning, brainstorming and headache behind the scenes are all paid off! thanks esther for being ever so lovely and gentle. you are an inspiration. you always manage to keep your cool and put on a beautiful smile even when we were hard to manage. thanks for all your hard work and time for us, especially when you're a mother and you have to take care of baby eitan too. you were always there for all the practices, and you always arrive even earlier than all the dancers. you are the perfect epitome of a leader and a pastor's wife. and i just want you to know that i love and respect you lots, and i'm sure the rest feels the same way too :) and pastor, the man behind the production, without you, there will be no Dance, My Love. you are really someone for us to look up to. your courage and bravery, diligence and sacrifice, as well as your creativity rock our socks! thanks too for giving me and boon an opportunity to work in a production together. thanks for believing in us. we love you guys, you guys are the best and coolest mentors ever! *hugssss* :)
thirdly, to khen and adam who were in charged of our dance ministry and running all our trainings and practices for throughout this production. all the calling and sms-ing to check whether or not we'll come for practices, etc. you both are amazing leaders. a lot to learn from you guys!! God bless you guys lots!
fourthly, to all the amazing and extremely creative and talented chreographers. without you guys, they will be no nice dance choreos for Dance, My Love. cindy, adam, cheryl, uyi, sarah, khen, you guys rock to the max! thanks for all the money spent on phone bills, for your time and effort put into choreographing and perfecting the steps over and over, thanks for the patience and endurance, love and kindness while teaching us. we could be pretty messy and hard to teach at times, but u guys made practices so much fun! will miss learning and dancing to your choreos!! let's get together just to dance sometime soon alright? :))
fifthly, to all the technical crew, tv crew, sound crew, lighting crew, video crew, camera crew, and props team, etc. you guys made Dance, My Love so interesting to watch! many of my friends who first came to city harvest commended our technical crew. they said that we have the best crew ever and i couldn't agree more! you guys are the people behind the scenes who play such important roles, and you played it flawlessly. i wanna tell you guys that i always, always admired that spirit of our technical crew, and i really respect you guys. all of you :) to the video crew and camera crew, without you guys, those who missed Dance, My Love will not have the chance to watch it! and you guys captured the moments on films so perfectly. you guys are amazing!! to the props team, you guys get better, more creative and more efficient each production. and this time was no exception..you guys managed to deliver your best once again. wendy, you are so creative and you rock! though not many people know who are the ones who helped to prepare the props and moving them here and there on the real days, but we the casts know. and i just want you guys to know that we love you and you guys are the most creative props team ever!!!! keep it up!!!! :)))
sixthly, to all the hairdressers and makeup artists who had to squeeze inside the guest room and artist room with us, you guys are the best! thanks for waking up early to beautify us, thanks for using you expensive products on us, thanks for all the energy used up by doing makeup and hair for every single casts, thanks for making us laugh and calm our nerves when we were ganjeong, thanks for using your skills and talents into making us beautiful and hot, churchy, pastor-ish, nerdy, ballet-ish, hiphop-ish, mime-ish, judge-ish, salsa-ish, club-ish, mother-ish, drunkard-ish, etc. you guys make the charcters look real!!! you guys rock and i love you!!!
seventhly, to all the casts of Dance, My Love!!! all of you are amazing!! there are so many of you so i'll not name all of you here. but really, without you guys, Dance, My Love wouldn't be so nice and fun to be in! all of you talented people, i will miss you lots. am already starting to feel a lil depressed. like what pastor said, we will all go through the withdrawel syndrome. haha but let's meet up and watch Dance, My Love once the dvds are out, kay? can't wait for that!!! :))
eighthly, to all the friends who came to watch Dance, My Love, thanks for just being there. your presence there gave me support, and i felt encouraged to do better just because i know u guys are there. you may not know, but you guys made a difference just by coming. i'll not forget that u came. thanks for all the supportive calls and messages too! thanks people you're the best!!! :)
ninethly, to the crowd who were so excited, happy and supportive throughout the production. your cheers and support played a part in making the production a blast. whenever you guys do so, we are motivated to do even better..you can ask the rest of the casts too! you guys have been amazing. it was definitely a pleasure performing for you guys. you guys are such happy crowd! love you all! :))
tenthly, to all who have helped me change my outfits, wear my shoes, stick my batt pack on my back, wipe my mucus after scene 9, touched up my make up for the final scene. thanks..you guys are wonderful. boon, sarah ho, wei tieng, pui kar, en ai, and sharon, thanks so much! love you guys :)
and the following will be the more emo ones. heheh.
of course, to my lovely family who were there to watch and support me in almost every session. it is just diff when i know that i have my family's full support in this. i feel so peaceful during practices, especially when i have to practise until about 3-4am..because i know that my parents are ok with it, and it will be ok for me to come home late from practice. from there, lots of pressure and stress have been minimized. thanks mummy and daddy for looking after me so well throughout the practices and shows. daddy, thanks for being dr. tan when i didn't fell too well. thanks for buying all the expensive and yucky medicine and supplements for me just to keep me going. you guys are the coolest, most supportive and most loving parents in the entire universe. many would choose not to have their family or parents with them in the same church for fear that they will limit their activities and involvements in church. for me on the other hand, i have my family's full and strong support in everything and events! i love being in such a wonderful church with my entire family, and being able to share precious moments and special occasions together as a family and as a church. it is amazing how God brought us to city harvest, and it was my dad who initiated that we join this church. i'm sure it's God divine appointment, and i couldn't be more blessed, happy and appreciative for everything. thanks dad and mum and my wonderful sisters in the hood. you guys are my pillars of strength. love and cherish you guys more than i could ever say.
and how can i miss my pastor boon ;) dear, thanks for everything. i'm really happy to be in the same production together. even before esther told you that you were to play the role of the pastor, you were already so supportive by sending me to practices, accompanying me in practices, buying me sushis all the time, feeding me, slurging on me, being there for me. you are the best bf ever. thanks for being my crying shoulder, thanks for sharing my joy and pain, thanks for taking care of me like a princess, thanks for just being there. you are really wonderful and amazing. you rocked the role of the pastor! you blew me away! :) my best critic, best support, best company, best joker, best friend, thank you. this production with u is being added into our sweet memories of our journey together. love you dear :)
p.s: hmmm, do you wanna be a pastor next time? my dad and pastor kevin can train you up ;P
also, thanks also to the beautiful sarah ho for planning and matching and providing me the clothes for the production. thanks for bringing like, a quarter of your wardrobe [though i know there's more in your closet ;) ] to church just to let me try on. you are so amazing and cool, sarah! :)
and to the lovely jorida, thanks for everything dear. throughout this production, you have helped me so much. thanks for the expensive shu uemura lashes that u insisted to lend. it was my first time wearing false lashes and you made my first false lashes experience a comfortable and memorable one. heheh. thanks too for the outfit you lent me and the rest. your stuff were with everybody! you were willing to lend your favourite clothes to everyone, and your generosity and loving heart has touched me deeply. i know i said this lots of times already, but i'm gonna say it again, i owe you a lot!!! not only did u lend me stuff, but you lent me a lot of helping hand too. thanks for spraying the warm-up thingy all over my body, and rubbing it for me too. thanks also for teaching me how to warm up the ballet way, and giving lots of productive pointers so that i can do better. you showed a heart of gold and a heart of a servant. ian, i'm sure you're proud of you cg member!!! hehe jorida, i'm gonna say it again, i owe you! ;)
and also not forgetting, gin from oschool and alex who came all the way from spore just to train us for 3 days. you guys made the choreos tighter and nicer. you both are extremely talented and amazing! praise God for you guys!!! thanks a lot :)
i may have missed out some ppl, and if i do, do drop a comment or two to remind me!! and i'll spend u makan. eheheh. all in all, glory to God and without all of you guys, the production wouldn't be a success.
love you all,
careen a.k.a kyra :)
awww...this is so touching. never thought that he'd put so much thoughts into it. :)
he's coming back tonight and reaching here tmr! waiting is such a pain. heheheh :*
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two more practices to go after tonight's!!!
as much as how tiring practices can get, i'm enjoying every single bit of it. will miss the practices very much after the production. :')
and that will be the time that yours truly will put up her nerdy self and cling on to her desk to study!!
ahahahaahahha! imagine me like this.
oh, speaking of nerds, check out a scene in Dance, My Love where the most unexpected people will be acting as nerds in the dance school. you're gonna lurve it..they're the funniest nerds i've ever seen la. ahahahahha!!!
the production is just 3days' away!! woohoooo~ excited and nervous and stressed and happy and looking forward and hoping it is postponed so can practice more, all at the same time!
expectations are high towards it, and i'm really working my body off for this. means after all that hard work i'm gonna have a body to die for ;) *dreams*
just dropping by to update a lil!
xoxo
<3
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
somehow this song is so suitable for us now ya, dear? :)
love you...get home safe.
2days seem longer than ever :(
note to self: i own quite a pathetic blog.
hello peoples of the world! :)
life's been great and extremely busy. when i have the time, it's either i'm in church for dance practice, in church or out for shooting, sound recording, production rehearsal, or mentally revising the dance steps, visualising the whole play, memorizing the scripts, etc.
no time to be a nerd!
followed my daddy for a church camp which he became the camp speaker in PD for the past 3 days. spent most of my time there sleeping and rejuvenating, and it helped! most of my body aches due to excessive practices were gone! guess sleep really is magical :)
counting down: 4 more days till he comes home :)
oh, look how much she's grown!
one day old :P
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5 months old! :)
she knows how to grab stuff and hold her milk bottle! isn't she adorable? :)))
and the hair, still as lebat as ever.
this is how she looks normally. the blur look.
and when she's smiling :)
:)
ok, this is such a random post.
chao!
